Everything had changed since 3 yrs ago.
neoprints taken during poly yr1.
I used to going out a lot during my secondary schl times and early of my poly days. But ever since i study in nyp, i dont go out a lot as i am sick of travelling. so usually weekends i would rather stay at home rot. oh and i do have a habit is that i dun take initiative to sms ppl first.
so as we are studying at different school, the chances of meeting has became to almost zero. and we seldom talk. 就这样你觉得我们的友谊就变得很淡.
To me, i felt that as long as i treat you as my best friend, you are forever my best friend, no matter how often i talk to you, how often we meet up, i still treat you as best friend. you mentioned our problem to me a few times and i admit sometimes i put in less effort and you are so not happy with me. but i do rmb your birthday every yr. i rmb i carry helium hello kitty balloons from city hall back to my house and carry all the presents and balloons to your house. but u dun seems to like them, you said next time please get something practical. altho i am sad but i know i shld have get something practical. after that i got you something more practical. going to your house isnt easy, i need to take a bus to interchange and change to another bus then walk to your house. but u dun seems to appreciate this little effort i make to see you, as you know sometimes we hardly have common time to meet. and my 18 birthday, happily plan it with you and mj, not family, but end up , you all have something on , and i wait for u two at city hall for nothing. no celebration for my 18 birthday. but did i blame you ? no
you said you need someone to have normal talking/ crapping online . i did, just that you didnt realised. each and everytime i start to crap with you, your reply is just "yah" " then" "dots" . this few words are enough to kill the interest for me to talk to you. so i do make an effort to talk just that everytime i start and i sees your reply and i lost interest.
Friend i told you before, if you are feeling down or what , just call me. you said your mobile plan can call me free. so why dont u call me when u feeling down ? you cant expect me to sms u daily to check whether you are okay right ? i told u b4 i am always there no matter how busy i am, just call me, do not sms me becos sometimes i cant hear my phone ring. i must emphasize, i do ask u to call me when u are not happy, or ppl bully u , or u are feeling down.
As for going out, DO YOU KNOW how happy i am when i go out with you ? everytime you late for more than half an hour, i still wait patiently at lakeside mrt station. i wait n wait. i did not complain. and when i see you, i am like super high , say how are you and start to chat with you blah blah blah, but you are so 冷淡. you talk very little or sometimes you dont talk. these are also some effort i made . i do not go fine places when i am out with you, the reason why i always ask you where do you like to go or where you wan to eat is because i do not wan to go those places where you dont enjoy. but you dont know these, you only say why i am always making decision. i dont go to starbucks/ expensive restaurant when i am with you . do you realised? so please dun tell me its a burden.
Communication is important. YES very important. but each and everytime i am ready to talk, you dont talk. you said it takes both hand to clap. yah.that refer to you too. i always wan to have quality conversation with you, but you always keep everything to yourself. i am so sick of asking you whether you are okay or not because u always reply yah and nothing else. how to continue our conversation ? dont even think of a quality one or heart to heart because u always dun open your heart.
i have many group of friends. when i am in SL , they are a bunch of great friends. we camp together, bath together, eat together. great friends!
when i am in poly, fred, jeremy pris grace they all, another bunch of great friends. they listen to me when i am complaining. they are with me when i am down. pris even wrote a touching letters encourage me.
when i am in china, i have eejie they all , again they are my great friends too.
we can keep chatting, care for each other. but its different. because eventually when you leave the school, they do not contact with you anymore. because they do have they own circle of good friends.
i value every friendship, all these ppl in my life are important friends, u can have many many friends, but bestfriend , you only need 1/2 . because not many ppl really understand you.
i just want you to know, talking to you is super difficult.
tried so many times until i am really TIRED .
sick and tired of everything .
i would rather stay at home than going out. becos even i go out with you, it makes no difference.
you like shopping online, i make an effort to like shopping online. so that i have the same frequency with you , so that we have common thing to chat.
you said i dont make effort.
tell me, what abt you, what have you done ??
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